I don’t know about you, but when I’m depressed, my self-talk goes something like this:”This is uncomfortable … I wish I were dead.””I don’t know what to do about x, y, and z … I wish I were dead.””I can’t escape this sadness … I wish I were dead.””How can I get rid of this awful anxiety? … I wish I were dead.”Do you recognize the common denominator? The only resolution I see is to give up and die … either actively (when I’m extremely depressed and suicidal) or passively on other days. I don’t have the energy or the confidence to problem-solve. Which is why I have to be proactive with regard to my self-talk when I’m feeling very depressed and anxious. If not, my thoughts will follow the path of least resistance–and fantasize about death. I have to make a conscious effort to turn them around. And I have to repeat over and over and over again this sentence: “I WILL get better.”To view my YouTube video, click here.

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