Q: I wonder that God doesn’t have enough to do without hearing about my
weight problem. So many crises, so much death and turmoil in the world,
so many real problems to deal with. How can I possibly ask for help for something I have done to myself?
A: First of all, I could never for a second presume to speak for God. But
I also would never set my own limits on what is important to God or
diminish the awesome gift of my life to say or think that I am not
important enough (as a child of God) to ask Him for help.
I agree with you – I caused my overweight problems. I own them, and
acknowledge I “did it to myself.” It was an innocent self-abuse,
though. I couldn’t stop myself from overeating and being sedentary. I
honestly didn’t have the power to help myself.
Most importantly, the biggest mistake I made was to rely on something
material for my sense of self, and satisfaction. I cheated myself by
believing that food was my safety and salvation from the pain of
living. Put it in one way – I worshipped food as a graven, false image,
instead of God. I put desserts and second-helpings in the way of my connection to my Creator. Isn’t that a real problem? It sure was to me.
I was near death; I was in a major crisis. I was dying. I was eating and smoking myself to death. I was committing slow suicide.
Was I not
important to God? Did He not want to save a life, and bring one lost
soul to His side?
God did save me. I did ask for help in desperation, and got infinite
grace and peace in abundance. Was I wrong to do it? I leave that to God
to decide. But now I sure want to honor the gift of life I have been
given – I do it by helping others, and continuing to look to God for
everything in my life. And God continues to help me, and others, in
amazing graceful generosity – no matter how big or small the problem –
God is here, right now and ready. Just ask.