I sit at my computer this morning and all I can think is…

What I really want to tell you is that I feel awful. I look awful. That divorce has kicked my butt.

Only it’s not really divorce.

It’s another human being’s unresolved feelings that have turned this into a catastrophic, emotional war and my children unwitting, underage soldiers.

To be fair, it is also because I stayed in a bad situation so long that I am reduced. I am physically tired. I am emotionally battered. I am financially stressed. The problem is my spouse (soon to be ex-spouse) wants to battle.

Only tired me keeps showing up:

Without my armor
Without my horse
Without my shield

And this ex-Cinderella just wants to run back to the castle and hope that he can’t cross the moat.

He always told me that I would never win. Me, I always replied that if that was his world view of love that he’d already lost.

So the truth is if you see me…I feel awful. I look awful and divorce has kicked my butt. Only it’s not really divorce.

It’s another human being’s unresolved feelings that have turned this into a catastrophic, emotional war and my children unwitting, underage soldiers.
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