A Kick in the Tush Club member writes about the her Food Demons and Alien Voices.
Dear Janice ~ I was reading your book, Our Lady of Weight Loss, and when got to the evil twin chapter, I really paused right there to meet that voice (I might say I was given an opportunity to see – because I do think this was a gift from God) and it wasn’t pretty! In fact in my mind’s eye, I caught the literal red eyes of my ‘evil twin.’ This may sound creepy in a way, but this story will conclude with how this relates to my theology/belief system as well.
Anyway, at that moment – I took my journal and wrote down all the things my ‘evil twin’ and/or the Alien voice tells me (this list is on-going) – and so this is my list (thus far):
Things my “Evil Twin” says to me:

  • “You will never reach your goal.”
  • “You are proving to the world you can be a happy, successful ‘heavy person’.”
  • “You speak to me with a ‘shades of doubt’ and deceptive vocabulary with words like “hopefully”, “I think I now get it”, “God willing” – you always leave an escape route so that I am not really held accountable.
  • “At least you are holding your weight (for 5 years) and have not gained back the 25 pounds.”
  • “Maybe you can’t lose any more than this – perhaps you are just stabilized here.”
  • “You’re on vacation – there’s always tomorrow.”
  • “Well, at least you are trying.”
  • “Well, at least you keep trying.”
  • “You only lost 0.8 lbs this week, and that was with a perfect journaling week”” (implying what hope is there?).
  • “You might as well give up.” – this one followed the above one of course.
  • “You’re never going to be thin, never have – never will.”
  • “People like me are never thin.”
  • “You don’t know how to be thin.”

    Anyway, my revelation was as follows just a few days after making this list.
    The Origins of the Evil Voice – My Truth: Adam & Eve’s sin in Genesis was a ‘fall for all persons’ – and at the point of that fatal temptation – Satan was externally spewing words of doubt , like “surely God can’t really mean this” in Eve’s ear – words she’d never heard before…temptation (and with fruit no less! ! !phith).
    At that very point of the ‘fall’ – at the point of the bite (again, funny it happened through eating-yes?) – at that cosmic moment, the external voice became our internal voice (forever and in all of us until Christ comes again), our evil twin inside was born. Now that I see and I know the voice, I can really hear the lies in it – I know now as I have never quite before.
    For the first time in my life I really did catch the spiritual nature of the trip to Sveltesville. Now I listen far more closely for what that ‘voice of doubt’ tells me, and I treat it way more seriously.
    Suffice it to say, thank you again for your part in it! Kathleen A.
    Dear Kathleen ~ Thank you so much for your thoughts and insights on your inner Alien a.k.a. Evil Twin. I am sure your words hit a chord with many. We have all heard that voice – to one degree or another – in one form or another.
    Weight Loss is a spiritual journey, most definitely! And I am honored to be a witness to your success. Keep up the great work!
    Spread the spiritual word … NOT the icing!
    Janice
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