There are no secrets from God. All is exposed to him. Living in denial of this fact, in the illusion that I have the luxury of secrecy is a kind of twisted deception and leads me to live my life under a convenient lie. There is no true and final privacy. God sees everything. He has already sifted my soul… The film, “The Truman Show” is a kind of parable of this fact. I am on display to heaven. I might deny this, but that denial is a stupid and futile illusion. I may not like it, but I don’t make the rules of life. God knows everything about me…

1 O Lord, you have examined my heart
      and know everything about me.
 2 You know when I sit down or stand up.
      You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.
 3 You see me when I travel
      and when I rest at home.
      You know everything I do.
 4 You know what I am going to say
      even before I say it, Lord.
 5 You go before me and follow me.
      You place your hand of blessing on my head.
 6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
      too great for me to understand!

“God, you know me. This is a settled fact. You have already – past tense – known all the secrets of my life. I shed the illusion that you are not there, that I can have a personal secret, or thoughts or actions or plans or fancies or motives that are mine alone. I have no private property, no safety deposit box, no closed off closet. You know it all. You see it all. You are never surprised, or baffled, or amazed by the unexpected. I am an open book to you. This changes my life, to know and remember this. If I accept this and believe it, I find a new kind of sanity. I have to reconcile that I am not my own. Everything is open for view. You love me and want my best, but privacy and secrecy is an illusion. I accept this… This is what it is… This is reality. And living in this awareness is my sanity…”