Isn’t it wonderful? I realized that I would have to live in four month intervals after I visited the oncologist the first time and it made me realize that my life as I knew it was over and I had to get use to this new life that I would be living for awhile. Fear is huge part of cancer (not only your fear but your friends and family’s fear as well), it’s not surprising that we would live in fear of the test results that might mean the cancer is back. No one wants that! But I guess I’ll just have to deal with that when it happens, I’ve got enough fear for now 🙂