It’s easy to complain. I can fall into that trap as a mom especially.  When we’re on that complaining, love vibe channel, we see a bunch of crap come on our screen.  Everything is broken.  Everything needs to be fixed.  It’s exhausting.  Everything is.  At the end of the summer, I was burnt out.  I was asking for not just the typical “me” time which I advocate to stressed out moms.  It wasn’t about time or being alone or self-care.  I felt good during yoga, but had a hard time bringing the OM to my M-OM self.  I had been wracking my brain trying to learn and create business while letting go of any fears or limitations.  I am always on a path of self-growth.  I believe we all are.  There was just so much going on inside of me.  It was like storm.

I had anxiety arise as my oldest daughter was getting ready to  start her Senior year of high school.  My baby will leave the nest and yes, I know I have four others at home, but her and I have a different relationship.  She’ll turn 18 right after she graduates.  I started dating my husband when I was 18 and about to turn 19.  A few months later, I was pregnant with her.  Within less than a year of knowing each other, I married him.  I was nineteen.  A month after I turned 20, McKayla was born.  We became parents.  We became a family.  I learned who I was through being a mother to her.  It’s surreal that they actually grow up.  We watch our love form into a being, totally separate from us, and the become a person…like a real adult.  I had to allow myself to feel sad over this process.  I could feel myself release it.  I feel back to me now.

I asked myself what I was yearning for personally?  The answer was to deepen my connection with the Divine and to write.  Not just write, but full being, all of me writing again.  I learn so much and it fills my soul up through writing.  I can feel most myself when I’m really in my mojo-magic-writing flow.  It’s like I’m connected to all of myself, the part that’s always been and will always be.  Focusing on what I love, versus what I need to change or do, is not avoidance, procrastination, or not following through with the business side.  I am still working on a lot, but from a different perspective.  My higher viewpoint knows so much.  When I get out of the wants, needs, striving, I see magic.  I believe in magic then.  I believe in miracles.  I see there is so much potential, possibilities, and an infinite amount of ideas that can become reality.  Getting out of the mind and revving up my vibe is all I ever need.  Once I am real and clear about what I want, the Universe conspires on my behalf and I can feel the love.

Staying open to newness and that life can surprise and delight me is key.  I can make big power moves as I see the opportunities arise, but I must stay present, in today and savor the goodness right here.  Goals, dreams, and stretching your mind beyond your wildest wishes is a given, but stopping and smelling the whole world is what we came for any way.  That sweet scent is love.  We came to feel good and be happy, to enjoy this cosmic dance while we’re here.  I’m not going to waste any moments being frazzled.  There’s too much to appreciate and experience.  It’s not just gratitude on paper, but in your hear to.  Look for the good in your life and ask what your soul needs.  Signs and answers always come.  Raise your vibe and see what happens.