I wouldn’t exactly consider myself a daredevil.  But I wouldn’t say that I’m a pansy either.  I like to think that I fall somewhere right in the middle of that spectrum.

I enjoy riding on roller coasters.  I’ve done a ride-along in a NASCAR race car.  I’ve zip lined through the jungles of Jamaica.  And although I haven’t done it yet, I want to skydive too.

But just because I’ve done (or want to do) those things, doesn’t mean you’ll ever catch me on a high wire dangling above an open canyon or even bungee jumping off a bridge.  Nooooo thank you.

Recently though, I’ve found myself getting that “high” of living on the edge in an entirely different way.  By depending SOLELY on God.

Sure, that’s the way we’re supposed to live all of the time anyway.  But we are only human so for most of us, that’s a tough way to live.  We like to feel like we are in control of what’s going on.  And maybe God needs our help… He’s probably super busy, right?

But lately, I’ve been doing just that, especially when it comes to my finances.  Freelancers don’t get a steady paycheck.  They get paid when the work comes and even then, it’s on the client’s schedule, not yours.  And with my recent tiny house build, things are a little tighter than usual, so each project is super important.

Enter faith.

After many years of stressing, worrying, pseudo-problem solving and stressing some more (and ending up with adrenal fatigue), I realized that isn’t going to change anything.  Except how I feel in the meantime of course.  So instead, I’ve decided to trust God with the whole enchilada and have faith that He will provide the opportunities to work and the funds when I need them.  I trust that I can still tithe like I am supposed to (whether things get tight or not) and continue to do my best on each individual project and not stress out about the next one.

Yes, it’s a giant leap of faith and it does take heart-pounding courage to do it.  It’s like riding on the tallest roller coaster in the park with your hands high in the air, depending on that bar to hold you in your seat.

But you know what?  It’ll be the best thrill you ever get.

Stop trying to control your finances, control your relationships, control your job, control your studies at school, control… control… control.  Take a step back.  Do your part but let God take over the rest.  Have faith and live on the “edge.”

God’s got you.

So go ahead, take the leap.