I am a believer,
a dreamer, a traveler. I love learning, experiencing new places and cultures,
and climbing to the highest point simply to check out the view. Music and
singing can occupy me for hours. Reading, not so much. My faith, family and
friends are the most important things in my life. I find a reason to laugh and
smile every single day and I will never (ever)
turn down ice cream! Does that give you a pretty good picture of who I am?

If you happen to
know me, or if you met me for the first time and that’s all I gave you, you
might think I’ve left out a rather obvious, important piece. What I didn’t tell
you is I have cerebral palsy and I walk with canes. I was born 13 weeks early
and have had 15 surgeries. And while this disability has been a part of making
me who I am, I left it out on purpose. I intentionally left out the description
of my handicap because I wanted you to see me as I see myself – not as a person
with a disability. Those of you who wear glasses can probably relate to this.
If someone were to ask you to describe yourself, you wouldn’t immediately
proclaim that you wear glasses. Glasses aid you in seeing the world clearly,
but they do not define who you are.

While I am
somewhat reluctant to admit that I walk with canes, I also feel that my
disability has been a catalyst to trust and walk by faith, literally and
spiritually. My newest physical challenge is learning to walk without my canes.
Sometimes my steps are short and slow. Other times, my strides are long and
steady. I always insist on having my trainer, Chris, directly behind me before
I begin to take a step. My fear-stricken face lets him know that I am afraid to
take the step. I am afraid to fall. He always looks at me and says, “Go! Have I
ever let you get hurt? I am here to catch you. I will pick you up if you fall.”
There is rarely a day that Chris and I practice walking and I do not stumble.
But every day, he is there to catch me or pick me up if I fall. Despite the
difficulties associated with this new endeavor, sans canes, I feel so free!

Learning to walk
without my canes, has shown me the struggle and the joy of the Christian
life.  My relationship with Christ
has not been easy. But it has meant that I have Christ walking with me, every
step of the way–through surgeries, college, living in my own apartment–picking
me up when I fall. And in that relationship, even when my steps forward are
short and faltering, I have found freedom.

I
do not like to describe myself as a person with a disability. It seems unnecessary
to focus on the things I am unable to do because of cerebral palsy. My cerebral
palsy does not define who I am. I want to show you the full life that I live;
all of the things that I can do. Things such as driving a car, cheering
on my favorite sports team at the stadium, or having coffee with a friend. There
are, however, aspects of daily life that are much more difficult for me because
of my disability such as riding escalators, climbing into the bathtub, or trying
to navigate an icy sidewalk. But, I do not let these things stop me! Philippians
4:13 says “I can do all things
through Christ who strengthens me.” That’s the way I like it! Claiming a
disability is only good for getting a close parking space! 

**For an explanation of the title “Perfectly Human,” and to read the first entry in this series, click here.